I am in Kolkata now. It is 10:20 PM. I have 4 more days left in the city. After that I am again, leaving on a jet plane.
Right now thanks to the Nov 8 declaration of demonitization of Rs500 and Rs1000 by our Hon'ble Prime Minister the entire country is in a cash strife on the verge of a cash riot. There have been 25 deaths due to this and yet most educated middle-class and upper middle-class young Indians who have access to plastic and e-money are supporting it. And the poor and the old are the ones who are as usual the collateral damage.
In the United States of America where I have to go back and spend atleast the next 1.5 years the country has elected a racist, misogynist, abusive, sexual predator as their President over the most qualified candidate of all time. Perhaps because it was a She. But right now the verdict is clear. The majority of the white population do not want anybody else to be there. Racism and hate crimes have come into the forefront of even the most liberal cities and suburbs.
And I am not even going to start talking about Brexit, Bangladesh, Myanmar, ISIS, Syria, Israel, German Nationalist Party. I guess this is what apocalypse feels like.
And I am sad. Really sad. That I have to leave my bed, my house, my parents behind. I never felt like this before. But I do now. My parents seem so much more frail and withered and with every passing day I am scared that I might not be able to see them if I am not around. The logical part of my brain knows that it has to happen. But I don't want it to happen. I don't want to have to face it or deal with it. I just feel helpless and melancholy and doomed. Yes ! I feel DOOMED. I have gone through much worse before in my life and I have encountered this feeling before. But I could always bring myself out of it. Just this time it does not feel like it will be possible and most importantly it does not feel like I want to.
And yes 2016. YOU SUCKED!! SO BAD!! SO VERY BAD!!
Does it ever get better?
Right now thanks to the Nov 8 declaration of demonitization of Rs500 and Rs1000 by our Hon'ble Prime Minister the entire country is in a cash strife on the verge of a cash riot. There have been 25 deaths due to this and yet most educated middle-class and upper middle-class young Indians who have access to plastic and e-money are supporting it. And the poor and the old are the ones who are as usual the collateral damage.
In the United States of America where I have to go back and spend atleast the next 1.5 years the country has elected a racist, misogynist, abusive, sexual predator as their President over the most qualified candidate of all time. Perhaps because it was a She. But right now the verdict is clear. The majority of the white population do not want anybody else to be there. Racism and hate crimes have come into the forefront of even the most liberal cities and suburbs.
And I am not even going to start talking about Brexit, Bangladesh, Myanmar, ISIS, Syria, Israel, German Nationalist Party. I guess this is what apocalypse feels like.
And I am sad. Really sad. That I have to leave my bed, my house, my parents behind. I never felt like this before. But I do now. My parents seem so much more frail and withered and with every passing day I am scared that I might not be able to see them if I am not around. The logical part of my brain knows that it has to happen. But I don't want it to happen. I don't want to have to face it or deal with it. I just feel helpless and melancholy and doomed. Yes ! I feel DOOMED. I have gone through much worse before in my life and I have encountered this feeling before. But I could always bring myself out of it. Just this time it does not feel like it will be possible and most importantly it does not feel like I want to.
And yes 2016. YOU SUCKED!! SO BAD!! SO VERY BAD!!
Does it ever get better?
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